Wednesday, August 20, 2008

sorry about the delay...

i apologize for any delay in posting... i have a good excuse, i swear!!! :)

work has been incredibly busy--- it is the end of the summer session with the kids and we had a very big golf outing / steak and lobster dinner on the beach fundraiser on monday... where i got food poisoning and spent monday night and all of tuesday disgustingly and utterly sick. 

i went to the hospital at 11am on tuesday and was released that evening around 8pm. i wasn't going to go because i thought maybe it was just a 24 hour bug... but my largest incision started bleeding because of all the pressure and force from throwing up so much and i couldn't keep my fever lower than 102. i was concerned that something else might be going on -- considering just last week i was having really sharp pains on my left side (which has now subsided) and a really bad sore throat a few days ago. but they did some blood work and urine tests and everything came back pretty good (minus the bacterial infection from the food). needless to say, it was a long day. but, in a more positive light, i am feeling much better. i've finally stopped getting sick and am slowly starting to keep things down again. the fever is staying around 99-100... which is okay for now. i am just so upset that i didn't get to enjoy the steak and lobster dinner at the golf outing AND today we had bridal shower for one of the girls at work and i didn't get to eat any cake-- MY FAVORITE!!!! :(

i was back at work today-- and it went well. i had a lot of catching up to do (since i wasn't there monday or tuesday), but overall it was a good day. 

in regards to my health otherwise (disregarding the food poisoning) i am doing very well!! 

i was just speaking with a psychologist at work-- her husband had a kidney transplant 7 years ago-- he is doing very, very well. she was also able to provide some insight as to why my recipient has not really spoken with me much (to make a long story short ((and no offense to anyone at all!!)) i was a little (okay, a lot) disappointed when i didn't hear much from my recipient. previous to the surgery, we had spoken a lot, and then following the surgery, i hardly heard from he ((maybe 2 e-mails?)). i was hurt and angry and i couldn't understand how someone wouldn't be thankful.) anyway, she shared with me that when her husband had his surgery, he was a completely different person due to all the medication he was on. although he had received his kidney from a cadaver, it took his about a year to even think about reaching out to the family that it came from. i had kinda figured that there was something like this going on, but i was unaware of the length of time it would take to recover from all this, on his part anyway. so now i feel super guilty for ever being angry. but at least i have some answers (kind of).

again, i am so sorry for taking so long to post again-- i know an infinite amount (or so it seems) of you are following and reading my story. many of you have reached out to me to make sure i am okay, and i am so sincerely sorry for not responding sooner. i hope this answers some questions (me being busy with work, being sick and a little disappointed in this donation). although i hate to use excuses, i hope this clears the air a little. 

i promise to keep writing. i'd like to get back to writing daily. i hope you continue to read :)

melis xoxo

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

Believe me your gift is appreciated. It may be hard to express and some donors don't seem to want to hear it. Please continue to help others see the pure good of donating an organ. There are many people suffering thru dialysis, pain, low energy, fluid retention, diet craziness, loss of work and family time. On behalf of PKD families, thank you for your gift.

Anonymous said...

The gift u've given to your recipient is nothing short of life saver..I know the value of a kidney donation as my mother donated one for me as I was diagonised with renal failure..I really have no words to express my gratitude to my mother...and even if ur donor dont get back to you,spirit of humanity salutes u and like...